Thursday, December 31, 2009

31 DIS '09 telah melabuhkan tirainya.
terlalu banyak perkara yang terjadi dalam hidup aku sepanjang tahun ini.
selamat tinggal semua kenangan yang telah tercipta disetiap detik yang berlalu.
tak akan aku lupakan memOri itu.
pahit,suka,duka,air mata.
mengajar aku untuk menjadi insan yang lebih matang.
juga penentu hidup aku.
pengakhiran alam persekolahan aku tentunya.
2010 menggamit kehadiran penghuni alam.
memberi ruang untuk kita terus menggapai impian nan tinggi melangit yang tidak berpenghujung luasnya.
terus mengOrak langkah mencipta satu sejarah.
pasti yang amat bermakna dalam hidup.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

old fren

ZARIF RAHMAN
we ve knOwn each other since
we were 5 years old.
bestie at kindegarten.
even mOre than that.
SIBLINGS.
didn't have any cOnversatiOn after graduate on 6 years old.
suprisingly,meet again on MS.
thanx God,he didn't change.
still same as befOre.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

gudbye tO yOu my trusted fren
we've knOwn each other
since we nine or ten
we've climbed trees and hills
learned of luv and abc's
skinned our hearts 'n
skinned our knees
yOu gave me luv
'n helped me find the sun
'n evrytyme that i was dOwn
yOu wOuld always cOme arOund
'n get my feet back
On the grOund
gudbye my fren it's hard tO die
when all the birds
are singing in the sky
now that spring is in the air
flOwers are evrywhere
think of me
and i'll be there
'n I wish we cOuld bOth be there
we had jOy we had fun
we had seasOn in the sun
But the hilss we were climbed
juz seasOn out of the tyme
'n the wine alsO sOng like seasOns
have all gOne
thanx fOr evritin' fren :)

Monday, December 14, 2009

FreedOm

evrytin's was dOne.
freedOm!
can dO wuteva i want babe.
Thanx God fOr the strength.
that's wut i'm waitin fOr.
the real freedOm
:)

Thursday, December 10, 2009

allergic pizza

kOrg nampak pizza tuh?sedap?haa.ni aku nak citer.
awal taun harituh,mase hOliday seminggu mama bawak aku,adik n kakak aku g makan pizza.tyme tuh kan hOliday.aku manelah kuar umah kalau cuty.duk umah jer.bukan parents tak kasi,tapi aku jer.MALAS!haha.then,bila tak kuar umah lame,kena panas,aku ni senang demam sikit.(*orang kate antibOdy aku tak kuat.berani tOl dOrang cakap aku camtuh).mama dah belanje makan kan.pe lagi, makan je lah.tak disangke-sangke,balik tuh aku demam!kebetulan malam tuh memang dah plan yang abang yang sOrang tuh nak belanja makan.sO,rugilah.aku tak makan pun malam tuh.order jer,tapi tak makan.hampir seminggu gak lah aku demam.sampai satu harituh balik dari umah kenduri abang member kahwin,muntah terbelahak aku dibuatnyer.mase muntah tuh terasa pizza tuh.mejadi2 aku muntah.itulah dye sebenarnye orang degilkan (*aku ngaku tuh.huhu).dah tau demam kuar jugak.amik kau.sejak harituh,aku dah alergic makan pizza.bukan kata makan jer,bau n tengOk pun tak bOleh.lOya je tekak ni rase.huhu.orang lain sedap2 jer makan pizza.aku sikit pun tak heran dengan pizza.bawaklah banyak mana pun pizza depan aku,sikit aku tak heran!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

kita hanya akan menghargai seseorang hanya setelah dia melangkah pergi dari hidup kita.
itulah yang paling tepat buat saat ini.mungkin salah kau juga kerana lepaskan aku begitu sahaja sehinggakan aku jatuh ke tangan orang lain.dan sekarang kau muncul untuk menagih kasih yang sudah kau hancurkan satu ketika dahulu.rasakan!untuk kembali kepada kau semata-mata itu tidak mungkin sama sekali.ia tak semudah yang kau sangka.namun,aku masih berpegang kepada satu kata-kata bahawa tiada apa yang mustahil di dunia ini.sedangkan sesaat lalu kita asyik berkasih,sesaat kemudian kita berpisah.sedang tadi kita bercakaran,sebentar kemudian kita berkasih seperti tiada apa yang berlaku.ya!itulah lumrah dunia yang tak tercapai dek akal kita walau sepicingpun.aku juga tidak berani untuk ketawa dan mengutuk kau sesuka hati kerana andai suatu hari aku jadi seperti apa yang berlaku sekarang,mungkin aku akan lebih parah lagi.oleh itu,berfikiran positif.andai ada jodOh,sejauh mana aku melangkah menjauhi diri kau,mungkin Tuhan tetap pertemukan kita.tetapi jika tidak,sedekat mana pun kita bersama,pasti terpisah jua.dan tika itu,relakan seikhlas hatimu untuk aku pergi kecapi kebahagiaan dengan orang yang menjadi pilihan hati aku saat itu.cukuplah apa yang yang dirancang biarlah Tuhan yang menentukan segalanya.

Friday, December 4, 2009

khatan

masuk harini dh 4 hari adik bOngsu aku bersunat.haha.padan muka dye!saket aty gak act.ye r mengade smcm.nak itu ini sume dpt.cm raja.xpe2.yg beznye ble dye xdpt nk hyper as befOre.lalala.haha.sO,sOk de knduri sunt dye.dye pyO.xsbr nak dpt duet knOn.tengOk kO kimi!
tO my belOved lil' brO :
cOngrat's fOr diz achievement.
u had thrOugh diz test as well.
well,diz is cOmmOn task fOr every bOy in his life.
nOt only yOu r syg.
sO,i think ur will being a great bachelOr after diz.
i'm prOud of yOu.
(lagi2 bile kO xnangis kimi.hehe)
:)
*u can married after diz r deQ!haha.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia [SPM]

it was determinatiOn of my feature.
it's mOre than that.
my life!
wish me luck
sO i can get my achievement.
with gOd blessed.
hOpe sO.
SPM
18 NOV '09-16 DEC 09

Friday, November 13, 2009

this is da ryte tyme

friday.last day fOr enjOyed n being a commOn student. 'cuz next tyme,i'll cOme tO schoOl as a SPM candidate.lately befOre step out frOm schoOl,we able tO apOlOgise with all teacher.for wut i had dOne tO them.my spOken ,naughty,my actiOn.evrytin'.that's wut i'm hate it.cried.huhu.but it happened.

tO teachers :

thanx fOr all knOwledge that u had gave tO me.ur blessing was shadOw wherever i was.wut i'm dOing.it's enOugh even mOre than that.u r evrytin'.u neva tired tO advised me.cOnvinced myself bOut my ability.believed myself.being a mOtivater.gave ur perfect smile tO me even i knOw it's hard fOr yOu after we gOt a bad result.gOnna miss yOu.thanx teacher.thanx yOu fOr evrytin' :)

tO all my fren :

thanx fOr wut we had dOne tOgether.wut we had thrOugh.cried.laughed.tears.sadness.happy. evrytin' syg.i want evryone of us success after wut we had thrOugh tOgether.being sumone.prOve tO all peOple that we can dO it alsO.we can success.nOt like wut they always said.prOve they're wrOng.prOve that!make our great step.create sumtin' that can open dirty eyes of others.especially u'll guys.make our dream reality.don't let the others carry insult u'll.u'll is better than that oke.i knOw we can dO it like wut teachers n our parents always said.other than that,supplied with their blessing we can make it out of this jOurney.this is da ryte tyme fOr us.exactly!

Friday, November 6, 2009

argument

rini cam bese r g skul.haih.juz a week bfOre SPM.yeah.like wut i'm predict.if u want tO knOw da stOry juz read my writin'.same as ex-student fOrm 5,we must make seniOr page fOr skul magazine.at da beginnin',our mOnitOr was whO respOnsible fOr make it.but,unpredictable,da results wasn't gud.ramai yang tak puas hati act,tp tak berani nak bersuara.lagipun dOrg fikir cian dengan mOnitOr yg dh pnt2 wat.mOnitOr pn tyme tuh tak shOw off pn kt ktrg result dye.rmi yang t'tanye2 cne rupa sniOr pge tuh.aku tgOk benda tuh n prObnye,aku mmg tak puas hati langsung 'cuz pix aku xnampak.ne ley jadikan?byr dh mahal2.tapi aku diam gak.malas nak gadO2.then,sum1 had gave an idea tO make a new one.n da others was agree.all student in my class was knew bOut that but her da only one whO's dOesn't knOw.bukan saje2 tak nak infOrm bnd tuh.well,as prOmised,page bru yang ktrg wat kena hantar tOday.pe lagi kan.mula r cakap2 belakang orang yang tak puas hati tuh.cakap psl ktrg lk tuh.pdhal bkn ktrg yg create s.pge tuh.dk laki yg wt.xpe r.malangnye,geng aku bknnye jns cmtuh.ktrg mmg sOund direct jer.if rse panas aty pun at least tyme tuh jer kn.xde nk smpn2.at da begin,xnk pnjangkn hal nih.juz ignOre jer.tpi aku rase mkn m'jadi2 lak smpi de yg ngis.makin rancak lk dOrg nk ckp2 blakang.dk lki dh bgang hbs.yg kte kna tduh.ne ley jadi beb.aku nk blaja pn dh xbez.rse cm nk suh ckg kuar n sttlekn tyme tuh gk.xlame pastu,c.faridah panggil n dye minx xplnatiOn psl bnd nih.ye r ktrg pn dh bsr tp still nk argue dgn bnd2 cmnih.aku pn tak faham sbnye npe hal2 cmni smpi nk ngs2.juz a small matter i thOught.yg g mngadap cikgu tuh pn aku dgn 2 org kwn aku even bkn ktrg yg wat!sume nk lps tgn.tapi xpe.slame nih pn pe2 aku gk yg nk kna sttle kn hal2 kls tuh.cikgu bg respOnsible kt team aku 'tuk wt yg bru n aku kna xplain evrytin' bOut diz kt kls nnt.aku lagi.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

thanx :)

after rested.i came tO him as the others wished.it's not perfOce like his prefer.exactly nOt.it was my decisiOn.well.it's my life ryte.sO,why must i follOw the others.nO need tO stOry bOut diz anymOre.let it being histOry.
fOr yOu :
thanx fOr evrytin' even i knOw it's hard fOr yOu tO thrOugh it
:)

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

again and again

well,yesterday early in da mOrning my bestie was called me n yeah, i knOw her had sumtin' tO talk tO.n i alsO knOw wut tOpic will she open.it's true!at beginning sje wat ta faham.malas nak dengar dye membebel kt aku.then,dye teruskan juga.haha.dye dah taw perangai aku cane.aku pun dengar setiap pe yang dye cakap.try tO defend myself even i knOw she will blamed it on me.again n again.nOt she only.but evryone around me.ta salahkan dOrang tO judge me as cruel persOn 'cuz evrytyme talkin' bOut that,i'm loOk slumber.laugh here n there.nOt curiOus.n i like tO say 'lantak lah'.yeah.exactly!but dOrg taw pe akuh rase.?since first it was happened,i am da unlucky persOn that blunder.that's me.again and again.tired.evrytin' of my wOrd is unacceptable.why?juz 'cuz i neva talk wut i'm feelin' act.wut i'm think.wut in my heart.wut i want.evrytin'!!and i will nevermOre tO speak out.neva!fullstOp.i'm nOt da kind of persOn.'cuz evry drop of my tear was brought out of my sadness.disillusion.it's enOugh i think.and i juz let it gO sO i can carry on my life withOut bleed n da peOple out there can't see my darkness side. after that sO i can give my perfect smile.jOke as usual.tease.even inside of me was injured.nOt 'cuz of that only.it's mOre than that.wut peOple talk bOut me.damn me.but i knOw my unhappy it's juz for a while.then,i can laugh as befOre.well,let bygOne be bygOne.nOthing tO reminisce.it's whO am i act.fOr yOu,i neva blame yOu fOr wut happened nOw.maybe it's true.it was my fault.i want yOu knOw that 's yOu are da lucky one which is have a gud friend like them. appreciate them as much as yOu can.sO,evryone of yOu,cOntinue tO blamed it on me and i dun care anymOre!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

:)

early in da mOrning my bestie was text me.i thOught she had sumtin' tO ask me.yeah,exactly! secOnd text je dh tny 'psl tuh'.well,didn't answer yet but ask her back wut happen.sO,she stOry bOut that tO me.tgh mamai2 tuh pn aku layan gk r kn.i want tO crOuch it frOm her 'cuz i think i shOuld.but yeah,same as yOu.hard tO hide it.i tOld her bOut that but nOt entirely.juz a general i think.then,she ask me sOme of quest & i answer it in my own wOrd.thanx gOd she dOesn't ask me with her killer quest.haha.then i silent in my roOm fOr a while.of cOurse i didn't want tO stOry bOut diz tO her 'cuz i knOw even i tOld tO evryone,nO one will understand me.sO,juz let it be.ryte?sO,i will thrOugh my day with my own way for a while :)

Friday, October 16, 2009

need tyme

need tyme fOr myself
let give me being lOnely for a while
in my own world
withOut yOu
let me find out
wut i want
frOm deep in my heart
dun disturb me
even a secOnd

Thursday, October 15, 2009

sadness and friends

tOday as usual.nOthing happen.but yeah,yesterday.my fren was called me n talked sumtin'. it sOund urgent.first sentence from him when picked up da fOn, 'dye minx clash'.unpredictable 'cuz i did't prefer diz thing will happen.yup,a week befOre, he was tell me bOut their argument but i'm nOt take curiOus bOut that 'cuz biase r kn argue n fighting.then,it will be oke as befOre.sO,he ask me hOw to dO now.aduh,dah lame xwat kje mOtivate and advise org nih.huhu.i asked him whether he ready tO lOse the gurl or in other word he willing tO relinquish that gurl or he still want tO try cOrrect their relatiOn.and he said,he willing.it's mOre easier r kn.sO,wut r u waiting fOr ryte? u had make a decisiOn.juz dO it r dear.but u knOw wut,wut i like bOut him is easy tO make decisiOn & brave take a risk.i knOw he was sad even he laugh.then,we had sOme talked and jOke.laughter n tease.stOp there.at midnight,he text me but sleep already r.huhu.sOry oke. dawn befOre gOing tO schoOl,i text him & give sum sentence.wut da sntence? sebOk kOrg! haha.wherever u are,u r my bestie darl!wut had happened yesterday was realised me bOut wut friend is act.a lOng time didn't think bOut 'friend term'.yOu cry, laugh, angry,sadness,dOwn or wuteva,u'll share it wit fren even ur luver juz beside on yOu.am i ryte?think it by ur own r.
*when u lOst in darkness and searching fOr da light,tO help yOu thrOugh thOse lOnely nights,when evrytin' arOund u fails,juz hOld out ur hand,and i'll cOme running,that's wut a friend is fOr which is better than ur luver :)

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

diari

hey u!.yeah,dh lme aku tak update blOg.gler malas weyh! tak taw nak cakap camne.sO,aku gagahkan hati untuk update blOg even pOst tah pape.haha.pagi tadi g JPN kt PU cuz nak tukar ic.thanx gOd,prOses dye tak lame even aku sendiri tak sempat duduk kat kerusi,dah kena panggil.oke.then teman k.lOng g bfast kt maple sebelah tuh cuz dye nak makan.aku pOse plak.dye tak nak.aku pakse.after that g OTK.mma nak beli barang intan untuk balik asrama.Next destinatiOn,mma nak beli lauk kt kdai Pak Lang.dOrang ni pn satu,tadi kt OTK tak nak beli.haih.mma tanya nak masak ape buka jap g.well,aku?ikan sambal.haha.pe pun yang sambal,sume aku bedal!even tengah sakit perut.haha.tuh mmg fveret akuh r.lauk len?tak lyn.huhu.blek tuh wat egg tart.k.lOng ajr.kurang menjadi cuz tgn aku ni krs ckit bab2 nak kna uli2 nih.mmg tak ske weyh.tak sabar nak bbuker.minum air.haus seyh!

Friday, October 9, 2009

padan muke

well,harini takde study grOup.sO, agk bOring r kn.cm org bdO je duk umh.lps mnd n bfst, trus on cOmp.then, classmate pn onn.mmg bez r kn.chat r dgn dye.fuh,pagi2 jumaat yang hening tadi dye leh cite lucah kt aku.yang lagi tak bOley tahan pasal bf aku plak tuh.melampau r ni weyh. malas nk layan dye sgt cuz taw dye mmg cmtuh.tengah syOk dye kutuk bf aku tah cne aku bley marah dye pn aku tak taw.then,bile aku dh marah dye boley gelak plak.ceh! reasOn? sje nk test aku.tengOk sejauh mane aku syg bf aku.cilake kO! haha.tuh pun tak lame cuz dye nak sOlat jumaat.alah.baru nk chat lagi dgn dye.tapi takpe.petang tuh bf text aku.yeah,akhirnye!! hehe. cakap lebih kurang. then g taw dye pe yg mmber tuh cakap.aku bknnye kesah sgt pn pe mmber tuh cakap,juz nak dye taw jer.tp takde r sampai aku tak amik kesah kan.angin gak aku rase.ske2 nak kutuk bf aku! haha.aku ni kn ske gelak.aku gelak dye ley marah aku plak.haha.lantak kOrang r.wat lah pe yang kOrang ske.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

cukup setakat ini

camne nak start stOry? harini pergi sekOlah cam biasa. tapi entah kenapa,hati aku rasa lain. aku rasa fed-up dgn mereka2 yang tak pernah berubah.sampai bila? ye,befOre diz aku rasa bertanggungjawab untuk advise dOrang.datang & ajar dOrang even dOrang tak pernah mintak semua tuh.tapi takpe.aku tak kesah.kita kawan kan.maybe lebih dari kawan,teman.sumtyme aku diperlekehkan camtuh jer.mase kte ajr,cakap dengan orang lain.mintak kita explain byk kali. igt kOrg bayar aku ke 'tuk ajr kOrg.?aku sabar dengan keadaan tuh even kawan-kawan aku cakap aku lebihkan mereka2 tuh.de gak yang cakap tak yah amik pOrt dengan dOrg 'cuz dOrg tak kan pernah berubah.aku jadi bahan dalam geng aku kadang tuh.maybe dOrang tak pernah tahu tentang itu.tapi takpe.ketika itu aku masih percaya yang aku boleh mengubah diri dOrang. aku gagahkan jugak hati nih.sikgu selalu cakap 'apabila kamu melangkah setapak keluar dari sini,kamu tidak akan bersama lagi seperti sekarang.tiada siapa akan bantu kamu.kamu akan ada hidup sendiri.kerjaya sendiri.semua itu akan kamu jalani atas apa yang kamu usahakan selama kamu berada disini & sejauh mana kamu kerjakan ia.tidak kira sehebat mana relatiOn kamu.tidak kira apa jua hubungan kamu.'itulah yang sering terngiang-ngiang di telinga aku.tapi aku tak pernah mengia & menidakkan kenyataan tuh.bukan apa,kalau diizinkan Tuhan,aku nak mereka tersenyum bersama aku & rakan lain ketika mendapat result.maybe aku tak mampu buat mereka ketawa, tapi cukuplah sekadar sekuntum senyuman yang terukir.aku pernah rasa kesedihan sebelum nih bila bestie aku dapat result yg bagi dye kurang m'berangsangkan. tambahan lagi bila result aku jauh lebih baik dr dye. aku taw dye kecewa sangat.tyme tuh aku rasa agak b'salah 'cuz t'fikir.selama nih aku belajar syOk sendiri ke sampai aku lupakan dye? tak tolOng dye?kedekut ilmu ke aku nih? lepas kejadian tuh, aku mula share setiap ilmu yang aku ada dengan dye sehinggakan dye same level dgn aku.lebih dasyat result dye mengatasi aku.tapi aku tak pernah dengki dengan apa yang dye perolehi kerana bagi aku tuh rezki dye & aku tak cukup usaha.begitu juga yang aku cuba lakukan dengan mereka2.sampailah hari ini. aku mula mengakui kenyataan yang keluar dari mulut cikgu tuh. benar apa yang dikatakan. hOnestly, aku dah give-up nak tolOng dOrang yang tak pernah nak tolong diri dOrang sendiri.kenapa kita yang kerap kali amik kesah pasal dOrang sedangkan dOrang relax jer.sO,after diz,jangan pelik kalau aku tak amik pOrt pasal kOrang macam sebelum nih sebab aku tau.pe sekalipun yang aku wat 'tuk kOrang.benda tuh tak kan pernah berhasil.even that, aku sentiasa disini kalau satu ketika kOrang perlukan aku 'tuk m'bantu kOrang.tapi 'tuk seperti dulu yang bantuan dihulur tanpa dipinta takkkan pernah ada lagi!tak kira sape pun kau!cukup setakat pe yang pernah aku berikan.

Monday, October 5, 2009

study grOup

hellO evrybOdy! how r u? yeah,it's been a week i didn't update blOg i think.yeah.didn't hve tOpic tO wrOte & a lil' bz r.sO,sOrry oke? yesterday,i wif my fren had a study grOup at my hOuse. and all of us had choOsen math as subject fOr make a revisiOn fOr the day.well, one of my bestie weak in diz sub act.sO, we gave mOre attentiOn tO her.pity fOr her.she a lil' bit slOw when we talk bOut math.nOt math only,but evrytin' which have a num.sO funny!at beginnin',i take the respOnsibility tO explain any questiOn that she nOt undersatnd.but she still nOt understnd.after that, my fren,shahida replace me. she still nOt undtsnd. next, nasha teach her. still didn't understnd. can u imagine it? tired ouh. i feel tO angry her but my fren said 'dOn't angry wif her r.pity fOr her.calm dOwn'.haha. sO, take a rest fOr a while after study fOr 3 hOurs. after lunch,cOntinue our study 'till 4pm.next week mybe make a stdy grOup.but nOt decide yet.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

appreciatiOn

hari ini aku dpt anugerah kO-kurikulum.haha.cm tak caye jer.aku aktif kOkO.? sangat larh.! tp dlm persatuan aku ye r.kelakar plak aku rase.tak sangke. ye r,yg aktif bagai nak rak kehulu-hilir jOin kem pn tak dapat.aku yang tak pergi pe2 pn leyh dapat.tuh r korg,tak pandai amik peluang.haha.tapi kan, de org tuh tak puas hati. dye cakap cikgu tak adil. dah tak dapat nak wat cane kn.terime je r hakikat syg oi! haha.nyway, aku appreciate sgt dgn anugerah tuh & thanx kt Pn.Junaini 'cuz selected aku.

Monday, September 28, 2009

fighting on study

tamatnye cuti raya bermakna b'mulalah persediaan untuk pertahanan aku sebelum ke medan pertempuran. berbagai pendapat yang aku perolehi. tak kurang juga dengan kata-kata semangat dari semua individu sama ada yang dekat mahupun yang jauh. dengan azam & tekad baru, aku tetapkan hati 'tuk teruskan perjuangan demi masa depan aku sendiri. tidak ketinggalan rakan seperjuangan yang turut sama menggembleng tenaga bagi menguatkan kubu pertahanan. membantu sesama sendiri dalam segala segi yang termampu. takOt? tidak dinafikan. tetapi positif. itu yang seringkali diingatkan kepada aku! sO, usaha, tawakal & pOsitif!!

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Zodiac

VIRGO-the one that waits

dOminant in relatiOnship. sOmeOne luves them ryte nOw. always wants the last wOrd. caring. smart. lOyal. easy tO talk tO. everythin' yOu ever wanted. easy tO please. A pushover. lOves tO gamble and take chances. needs tO have last say in evrytin'. They think they knOw evrytin' and usually dO. Respectful tO others but yOu will quickly lOse their respect if yOu dO sOmethin' untrustwOrthly tOwards them and never regain respect. they dO nOt forgive and never fOrget the one and only.

-by ament pOur

*cOpied frOm : zirafahteksha.blOgspOt.cOm

Friday, September 18, 2009

selamat hari raye Aidilfitri :)

Andai lisan tidak terjaga, andai janji terlupa laksana, andai sikap tidak berkenan, andai hati tercetus prasangka, andai langkah membekas lara, andai kata merungkai dusta, andai tingkah menOreh luka.
dengan serendah dan seikhlas hati, ku menyusun 10 jari untuk memOhOn ampun dan maaf atas segala khilaf yang pasti ada antara kita.
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Maaf Zahir & Batin

Thursday, September 17, 2009

dOne :)

finally, i've finished my trial exam!
yahoO!
well dOne babe :)

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

belated bday present :)

yeah. tOday i've gOt one mOre present frOm my fren.
MUHAMMAD IZZUDDIN FARID B MUHD ZAIN
at night a days after my bday, he had called me.
we chat on the fOn.
act, he was fOrgOtten my bday.
nvamind.
he asking me what i want fOr my bday present.
i thOught he was jOking at that tyme.
unpredictable, he really gave me the present.
maybe u'll saying.
'alah, dpt hadiah pn nk kecOh ker.?'
but fOr ur infOrmtiOn, it was the 1st tyme i gOt a present n wish frOm him after a lOng tyme we being fren tOgether.
haha.
agak terkejut sbnanyer.
thanx farid :)

Monday, September 14, 2009

kad rayer

kad raye aku dh sampai kt mmber2.
hehe.
aku tak penah lupa kt kOrg.
kOrg jer slalu lupa kt akuh.
huhu.
xpe r.
aku tak kesah.
keep it prOperly yeah.

Friday, September 11, 2009

perginya insan bergelar guru

yeah. harini pergi skul macam biasa. still exam. evrytin's was oke until my BM teacher was tell us bOut my sub teacher will transfer tO SMK PuchOng Permai. mase mula2 tuh sume shOcked gila. tanye saper yg dapat.? ustazah che eshah ( ustzah aku weyh), cikgu Sarojini Thanimalai (cikgu sejarah aku), cikgu sarojini devi (ex-teacher BM F3 aku) & cikgu zulkapli (GPK HEM). happy.? exactly nOt. yeah, actually, sedih. mase mula2 tuh oke jer. gelak2. sekali ustazah dtg kelas nak salam kitOrang cuz dye dh ajr ktrg 3 taun okeh! sedih giler weyh! tak sanggup rsenyer nk lepaskn dyer. tak pasal2 classmate aku menitiskan air mata tadi. include me. haha. aku ni agame kt tangan dye jer. dye dah cukup faham dengan kerenah kitOrang. mOst impOrtant, i dOn't want have a lessOn with USTAZAH ANAK. it was the nickname had given tO her by student of my skul. tah pape lah dye tuh. aku rela takde cikgu oke. lagipun kitOrang dah habis silibus. oke what.? revisiOn tuh bOle wat sendirilah. same wif histOric teacher. hOnestly, selama nih, aku takde lah tak suke kt dye. malah, aku nak b'terima kasih kt dye 'cuz kalau dye tak wat camtuh kt my class, aku tak kan belajar sejarah yang sememangnye aku tak suke! but juz 'cuz afraid with her, i try tO dO my bez & get da bez result. yeah. that's fOr my own gud ryte. cikgu zul plak dh nk pndah. habislah camtuh. ranap skul puchOng. dye de selama nih pun skul tuh huru-hara.nyway, watch out evrybOdy that will have a lessOn at SMK P.Permai . cikgu zul garang ouh. tpi kalau kOrg jahat r. if x, dye oke jer.
wish tO all teacher :
selamat menempuh ke satu alam baru di tempat lain. semOga mendapat pengalaman yang lebih berharga. jangan pernah lupakan kami anak muridmu disini. terima kasih atas segala jasa baikmu ke atas kami selama ini. kami takkan lupakan kalian. maaf atas segala salah silap & keterlanjuran kami selama kami bersama kamu semua.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

new fren :)

new fren
farahin mastafa kamar
affy GF
bez chat wif her
kenal secara tak sengaja.
byak mulut like me.
haha.
senang mesra.
xpasal2 macam2 cite kuar.
huhu.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

kuih raye

1st prOduct frOm me fOr diz year.
hOney cOrnflake :)

* pOyO plak. cm xpenah wt jerk. pdahal evry year wat. haha.

Saturday, September 5, 2009

perempuan :)

sensitif :
bukan bermaksud suka merajuk, tapi hanya ingin bermanja mendapat perhatian.
cerewet :
bukan bermkna FUSSY tak tentu hala oke.! kadang ingin LELAKI mengikut kata-katanya sekali-sekala
halus :
ibarat sehelai sutera, cantik, mulus, lembut, mudah tercarik & terkoyak. even seorang perempuan memaafkan seseorang yang lain atas sebab kesalahan, biasanya perempuan akan ingat kesalahan tersebut sampai bila-bilapun untk disimpan jadi pengajaran. bukan DENDAM.
ikhlas :
ikhlas seorang perempuan tidak perlu diragui.
prihatin :
keprihatinan seorang perempuan tiada tandingannya. kami sentiasa memerhatikan keadaan sekeliling even dalam diam tanpa pengetahuan siapapun even kami bersikap acuh tak acuh.
manja :
even kami seorang perempuan yang bijak berdikari, naluri & hatinya tetap seorang wanita. sikap suka bermanja bukan sahaja pada kaum adam, namun pada sesama kaum juga.
egO :
seperti lelaki, perempuan juga punya egO tersendiri. but, sumtyme dia sanggup ketepikan egOnya itu apabila bersemuka dengan orang yang dicintainya.
cinta pertama :
cinta pertama bagi wanita adalah yang paling dalam & tulus.
kredibiliti:
lelaki adalah DOMINANT & kami adalah recessive even kami tak sukakan situatiOn begini. sebagus manapun wanita itu, dia tetap inginkan lelaki yang kredibilitinya lebih tinggi dari kami.
perhatian :
sukakan lelaki yang caring, tapi bukan mengongkOng. wanita amat rimas dengan kedaan sedemikian.

nephew

1st : ALIF FARHAN
2nd : PUTERI ALIA SOFEA
belOved nephew that never be replaced by anyOne oke. even they were very2 nOtty. oh nO.!

skoOl

here are sOme of my memOry wif my belOved fren. classmate yg ting-tOng. but, still da bez.! syg gile2 dgn dOrang. jgn lupe aku weyh nanti biler dah habis skul. p/s : banyak lagi pix. tpi xbley rOtate.! sengal.!

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

sweet 17 :)

yeah. tOday is my birthday. i'm 7teen years old nOw. alhamdulillah. cukup gak umO aku. sempat gak aku kecapi umO ni. wish aku kali nih.? secret r dear. dah makin dewasa, of cOurse harapan aku makin besar. makin tinggi. kOrg nmpk pix tuh.? that was my 1st birthday present fOr diz year. nOt 1st wish. but 1st present. whO gave.? of cOurse frOm my dear. haha. thanx u! tadi kn bfOre balek, classmate aku ckp nk baling tpung kt aku sOk. gler r dOrg.! ah pe aku kesah. kOrg brani kOrg wat r. taw r nasib kOrg t. huhu. jgn dicabar iman aku bulan pOse nih. nyway, thanx tO all my fren yg igt bday aku rini, yg wish. thanx eh :)

Thursday, August 27, 2009

study

tOlak harini, cuti tinggal 4 hari. selasa aku dah kena naik skul n trial. mak aih. aku xstudy pe pn g weyh! asyk ckp risau jerk. tp xb'gerak2 aku nih g study. haha. kOrang de ubat rajin x.? nak ckit bOley.?

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

like what i'm predict :)

hOw tO start diz stOry.? yeah. a few week befOre, had sumOne was begging me tO return back tO him. sO many reasOn he gave tO me fOr take me back. what he said.? blablabla. byk gler. but i had tell tO him that i had sumOne already. act, he was my ex-bf. n he was unfaithful with me.! damn yOu.! a few days later, i was teased him with the pix that he put on his myspace. captiOn : MY BOBOO. haha. what da reasOn.? juz fren r efa. nOthing. bru jer knl. de aku kesah ker kau baru kenal.? siap b'sumpah dgn aku tuh tak nak cari gf baru. alsn.? serik. haha. bajet i ley blembut dgn u macam 1st i kenal u. nO r. i knOw ur tactic r dear.! sO much okeh. like what i'm predict. tuptup. tgOk ms dyer, dh de gf bru. haha. see.? i knOw him btter frOm other gurl n bOy even i xslalu cOmmunicate dgn dyer. xdpt dinafikn, dyer mmg sweet-talker. tapi, dyer salah orglah dgn aku. aku xkesahlah pe dyer nak wat. g pun aku de sumOne btter frOm him. that's da fact. juz wait n see sjauh ne dyer dgn gurl tuh. xdOakan yg xbek bOut them. aku bukan org camtuh. juz. haha. wait fOr ur turn ,gurl tO sad juz 'cuz of him. i'm sure u'll gOt ur time. tapi, tak tau r kalau dyer dah brubah. InsyaAllah.

RM3.80

dah bape ary aku tak update blOg. sume gara2 PC aku wat hal. sengal.! aku dah cuak giler 'cuz befOre diz g check brO tuh kate maybe hard disk prOb. aiseyh. hard disk dah lah mahal. dengan nak raye nih. memang lepas rayalah jawabnyer baru nak betulkan. seb bek brO tuh baik. dye cakap cabel hard disk jer errOr. sO, gnti tuh je r. harge.? RM3.80. haha. penat2 jer aku & abg aku fikir pasal benda nih takut kOs tinggi. nyway, thanx brO.!

Sunday, August 23, 2009

buka puasa

semalam 1st day puasa n macam taun2 lepas r. family sys aku b'buka kt umh ktrg. kbetulan, nenek, aunt n cOusin pn de kt cni. sO, lagi meriah r. mkn per.? sedap seyh. haha. sahur pn rajin jerk aku bangun. biasa r awal2 kn. tggu next week skul dh start. b'tuah sgt r aku nk sahur. malas r.

Friday, August 21, 2009

MERDEKA !

dalam excited nak sambut puasa nih. jangan dilupa Hari Kemerdekaan Malaysia yang ke-52. macam2 yang sudah kita tempuhi untuk kecapi apa yang kita ada. namun, dalam masa yang sama, masih ada antara kita yang terpinggir. hanya negara sahaja yang maju walhal, fikiran bangsa Melayu masih ditampuk lama. tidak berganjak walau setitik.! oleh itu, apa kata kita luangkan sedikit masa renungkan sejenak apa yang dilagukan oleh mereka2 yang celik mata & juga hatinya.

ANAK KECIL MAIN API

PERJUANGAN YANG BELUM SELESAI

LAYU

sO, wut ur feelin' nOw.? nOthing.? xde prasaan r kOrg nih. when i watch diz videO, feel upset n sad. pe yang TUN MAHATHIR cakap sumenye btOl. bukan bak bkk pekung di dada bangsa, juz nak kita sedar. dye cukup penat. dye pernah cakap : 'nak bangunkan negara adalah lebih mudah daripada memaju & menukar stigma Melayu'. lebih kurang camtuh r ayat dyer. bayangkanlah. aku cukup menghargai jasa2 pejuang bangsa sebelumnih. terutama, TUN DR MAHATHIR. dye idOla aku. nO one can replace him as herO of Malaysia.!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

cite sengal

tadi last paper befOre hOliday nih. evrytin' is ok. tp tadi kan mase wat essay bi. klakar plak aku rase. wat sOalan pasal stOry. ending dye msti kna ayt ' I had speechless & tOuched with the give that I neva had' lebih kurang camtuh r. aku pun fikir punya fikir. nak wat cite cmner nih. mase dah suntuk gler.! kang fikir lame2 mase habis. stengah jam lagi habis maser. mati aku kalau essay xsiap. aku pun bantai. Alhamdulillah. sempat siap. idea datang pun laju cam air. tapi sbb mase dah singkat, tpakse pendekkan stOry tuh. ikutkan stOry aku tuh panjang. mase aku wat essay asyik senyum jer. dah cm org xbtOl aku rase. xde r. cte aku pun cam sengal en. hak3~ wuteva r. asl essay aku siap & dapat markah sudah. nak tggu marks utk stOry sengal aku tuh.! haha.

sambut puasa

lagi sehari jer nak puasa. sOk jumaat, sabtu dah puasa. kejap je rasa. raya tahun lepas pun still t'ingat2. dah nak masuk raya lagi. excited nih nak puasa sebenarnyer. puasa tuh lagi meriah daripada rayer. puasa sebulan penuh kita sambut. raye.? seminggu jer dah ilang serOnOk tuh. wuteva lah. yang penting xsbar nak PUASA oi.! kOrang jgn pOnteng puasa okeh.!

Monday, August 17, 2009

worried

1st day trial. ok lah. but +math macam bese. xyah cakap pun dah taw kan. pagi tadi aku bangun macam bese. siap2 nak g skul. befOre g skul aku jalankan respOnsible aku as daughter. salam mama & ayah. mula2 salam ayah. mase salam ayah tulah dye. ayah tarik & peluk aku, gosok badan & kepala aku. then he said :
ayah : buat betul2 eh uteh.
aku : yer.
ayah : bace bismillah dulu. jangan fikir bukan2.
aku : yer.
then aku keluar. salam mama pulak. mama pun cakap benda yang sama.
mama : buat betul2 uteh. jangan main2.
aku : yer.
mama : ingat taw.
aku : okeh.
aduh. aku tak suka mereka cakap begitu 'cuz even dOrg xcakap pun aku taw pe harapan dOrg. bler dOrg ckp cmtuh, wat aku lagi wOrried.
nyway, thanx fOr ur cOncern 'n wish me luck mOm, dad !

Sunday, August 16, 2009

add MATH

sOk dah start trial exam + gerak gempur. ouh nO.! aku xstudy lgi nih. 1st pper dah killer subject. +math. adOi. npe r ckg ltk tuh 1st pper. ltak lah pper tuh lps cuty. aku pun tak taw ape mOtif aku blaja +math. if chem or biO de gak lah benefitnyer. still using da knOwledge in my life. +math.? juz a stupid subject r syg.! bkn nnt aku kawen husband aku tny bnd2 nih pn. haha. tpi nk wt cmne, da kna blaja kn. juz dO it larh.

Friday, August 14, 2009

diari 5B

dua hari b'cuti, naik sekOlah agak mengejutkan aku bila ada yang berubah. baru dua hari tuh aku cuti. majOriti classmate aku dah mula study & dO revisiOn fOr trial exam next week. fuh! terkejut gila sebenarnye. yelah, bukan snang nak tengOk dOrg study. huhu. masing2 cuba memanfaatkan masa yang t'luang sebaik mungkin. de je keje yang dOrg wat. g padang fOr PJK pun bwk bku same. they make me prOud wif them! but at the same time, sOme of us still de yang macam endah tak endah jer dengan trial next week. playing there & here. entahlah. lantak dOrg. that's their feauture.nOt me ryte.? sejak kebelakangan nih, aku malas cikit nak study. tapi tadi, tgOk mmbe bukan men khusyuk lagi study, aku pun wat same r. tak pasal2 hari ni aku straight study. nO playing okeh! thanx dear fren 'cuz dah naikkan semula semgat aku nak study. cikgu bm cakap lame xnampak aku.hOliday ker.? alah,perli akulah tuh. baru dua hari cuti dah rindu ke cikgu.? dye tnye aku demam ker.? aku pun ye kn jer. haha. suddenly, rase cam tensiOn gler r dgn study nih. tak sbr nak hbs.!

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

return tO him.?

penah dengar lagu ALEXA-JANGAN KAU LEPAS & RAMA-SAAT TERINDAH.? nice sOng rite.? aQ mmg sker lagu tuh. tapi xsangke lak yang aQ akn dpt lagu tuh. de org bagi kt aQ. dye nk aQ hayati & dgr lagu tuh btOl2. aQ pn dgr n fhm mksud dye tuh per. but, sOry dear. i had sum1 n i dOn't want tO hurt him. n i alsO dOn't knOw even i cOme back to yOu, i can get what i had nOw. peOple can say evrytin' bOut him, but i knOw him much better frOm u n them!

cuti-cuti skOla

rini aQ xskul. terasa malas lak. ye r. after diz x bOle nak cuti dah 'cuz smpi raye aQ trial exam.sO, ksempatan nih, aQ amik cuti tahun aQ yang baru digunakan agak sikit. haha. duk umah agak bOring sbnanyer. tapi seb bek de PC yang berguna nih. aQ pun asyik on jerk. sambil2 tuh chatting dgn 'member lame'. lme ker.? xde r lme ne. huhu. hadap PC dr pg smpi ptang. tggu mletOp jerk PC nih! smpi aQ lpr. then, bfOre mma naik hangin, aQ pn off PC & wt innOcent face duk depan dye. huhu. sOK nk skul ker x.?.tgOk r. cm mls jerk. mma, dun angry okeh!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

diari 5B

tOday g skul cm bse. rni cuty dr wat bisnes aQ tuh. haha. as usual, herO kelas aQ r. bukan main sengal lagi. dOrg dgn bestie aQ, shahida same jerk. nak curik aQ punya wallet. nO way.! aQ sumpah jadi tanggang nnt taw r. haha. sO, full day aQ study xtnteram. beware if herO blkg aQ amik. ngOx.! de skaly tuh hmpir dpt. tapi malangnye, instinct kprempuanan lg kuat taw. sO, xdpt. bila dah de benda camtuh, pe lagi. cari pOint 'tuk balas dendam. dah r pagi2 kena cari meja & kerusi 'cuz benda alah tuh dah kena amik dgn dak f3 mse ktrg g lab chem. tongOk punya juniOr.! ( bak kate dan. haha. ) nk cri tuh 1 hal, kerusi xbyk. sO, mmerlukn tenaga jantan rashdan & azam. tapi, dOrg bole plak men2 kn aQ dgn shida. snggup tuh naik turun dgn angkut kerusi kt tangan tgge smate2 nk myakat ktrg. bpeluh2 aQ kjar dOrg dbuatnyer. seb bek ade din, dye tolOng aQ rembat kunci motO rashdAn.dgn pix dye aQ amik. pdn mke kau dan.! men lagi dengan aQ yang t'nyata lbh hebat dari kau okeh.! hak3. aQ baru nk kena kn dye kaw2. tapi arep sengal r, fOn dye kt dan. dan pgang fOn xnk ksi kt arep. dye ugut klau dye xdpt kunci, arep pn xdpt fOn. aQ peduli per. aQ pgang kunci dye smpi balek. dOrg ikut aQ smpi aQ nek bas. cam bOdyguard wOk.! haha. arep ley mrayu2 kt aQ minx kunci dan. sOry guy, bkn niat aQ nk kna kn kau. tp kesengalan kau m'jerat dri kau. huhu. dengan perasaan yang geli hati, aku pn pulangkn lah kunci mtO dan. if x, balik tOlak mtO la kau dan.! dah dpt wat mke kerek dye dgn aQ. wait fOr my next dirty plan,RASHDAN.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

lOyal

entah kenape, sejak kebelakangan ni, hati aku kerap diduga. de je yang datang. tak cukup dengan tuh, hati aQ sendiri pun. tak taw nak cakap camne. penat main dengan benda nih. bukan terlalu yakin, tapi sO far, hati aku still tetap.! tak berpaling tadah. aku pun tak berani nak cakap pasal benda-benda ni 'cuz hati kan. kalau aku b'iya-iya cakap tak pun. tapi kalau Tuhan nak duga, dia pusingkan sikit hati aku. autOmatik berubah rite.? juz tryin' da bez. even one day my relatiOn will break, unfaithful will nOt being da reasOn. hOpe sO.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

khunsa

sejak kebelakangan ini, isu khunsa sering berlegar-legar disekitar kita terutama sejak kematian pengarah terkenal,Yasmin Ahmad yang dikatakan khunsa. dahulu, dia diceritakan pernah menjadi & mengamalkan gaya persis seorang lelaki. namun, tiba dewasa dia memilih jalan untuk menjadi wanita & telahpun mendirikan istana bersama seorang lelaki. seperti biasa, bila timbul perkara seperti ini, family aku akan berdebat untuk menegakkan pandangan & pendapat masing2. tapi tidak sampai berbalah okeh. untuk mendapatkan maklumat yang tepat, akupun search kat internet. malangnya, tidak satupun laman yang memberi penerangan khas tentang isu ini. laman web yang ada sekadar menyediakan maklumat yang sedikit. tapi takpe, aku akan daptakan jugak. bukan pe, untuk pengetahuan kan.